Blog Challenge: Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?


This is an incredibly painful one as I’ve lost someone very close to me to suicide.  I knew of his pain, the alcoholism, the depression, and over the years tried to intervene in an effort to prevent it; sadly nothing worked and four years ago, he took his life.  He left behind a daughter; his only child.  His family.  His friends. And to date, no one has comes to terms with it.  There was no note; therefore, no explanation; only speculation.

Even though I self-injured, which is a NON-suicidal coping mechanism,  for almost three decades, I can’t actually say I’ve ever really wanted to give up on life.  I know I had a lot of issues that contributed to my pain and reasons to self-injure; suicide has never been an option.  Life, even with its pain, chaos, and turbulent nature still has many good aspects to it and is worth living.

Given my proximity to suicide, I find myself angered by a society that constantly thrusts things, people, and images in our faces and lives that contribute to people feeling inadequate, alienated, chastised, and marginalized, which are triggers for suicide or attempts at suicide.  It’s not solely because one is weak why they take their lives and more needs to be done in forms or acceptance and tolerance to prevent suicides from occurring.  We need to be more interactive, more kind, more willing to help others in order for those feeling like they have no way out; to have a person and/or resource to help them cope.

The second week of September is National Suicide Week, but it should be everyday.  We each can take a stand to be more proactive, more loving, more kind, and certainly more aware of change in another’s behaviour, mindset, or emotions.  There are many resources available for those in need of counseling and the following Google link shows some of them Suicide Prevention Information

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Seeking help makes you stronger than your weakness and I pray that someone in need will reach out and get the help they need.


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Blog Challenge: Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

kick dirtDamn this blog challenge!



I have created so many playlists over the years it’s not even funny, but given that was a different time, place, and experience in my life, I can’t use any of them.



Here I go with a new playlist…

To My Love:

Even though you and I both like music, your appreciation of it if very different to mine, but I’ve created this play list because these are songs that remind me of you and of us.  These songs are based on lyrical content or from memories we’ve created based on these songs.  You’ve become one of the most important people in my life and I thank you for your presence, your love, your fidelity, and for being my best friend.  We’ve seen each other through some really bad times and conversely through some of our very best of times; each of which have brought us to where we are and will guide us to our continued journey.  We’ve survived relationships that may not always have been the best for us, but from each we’ve learned how to become better lovers and friends now.  We’re blessed to have found each other even though we weren’t really looking at each other that way initially.  I guess it’s true what they say about the best relationships being formed 1) from being great friends and 2) when you weren’t expecting it.


  1. My Friend – The Glengarry Bhoys
  2. Deep Inside – The Glengarry Bhoys
  3. Three Little Birds – Bob Marley
  4. Jammin – Bob Marley
  5. I’m Gonna Do My Best – Beres Hammond & Buju Banton
  6. Booty City – Black Joe Lewis
  7. Super Soaker – Kings of Leon
  8. Murderer Buju Banton
  9. Zungguzungguguzungguzeng – Yellowman
  10. She’s Mine – Barrington Levy


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Blog Challenge: Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life

Maintained my ability to speak French

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When I was still in the UK, I grew up learning and speaking French.  I was always an A-student and spent time in France to improve my speaking abilities.  French has and will always be my favourite foreign language.

Truth be told, I can actually still speak French, but it’s not nearly as good as it used to be. I can still read and understand a good majority of things written in French; however, my conversational French isn’t so good.  For some time now, I’ve told myself I’d improve on that; that I’d start practicing again and become re-acquainted with the language I love so much – sadly, it hasn’t happened yet.

why-speak-frenchGiven the many reasons to learn French, I need to get off my arse and just do it! I need to stop talking about it and be about it. Rosetta Stone is a great way for me to dive back into the deep end to dust off my skills and do more than French kiss! Hehe 😉

A former co-worker has moved to Quebec, Canada where French is the primary language and he has to learn it, so I’ll take this as a sign that he and I can speak with each other in French in order for us both to benefit from it.  He is currently taking classes and I still have many of my study books, which will serve me while I wait to purchase  the Rosetta Stone software.

Oui, je parle Francais, mais ce n’est pas tres bon!


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Blog Challenge: Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life

Another one of those entries that make me go hmm


Given that each of my experiences have been learning lessons; be they good or bad, I can’t immediately think of anything I wish I hadn’t done.

(insert the hovering fingers over the keyboard while I think)


I think I can say it was to trust when I shouldn’t have or was given no reason to.  Trust has been something very hard to come by in my life, so when trust has been compromised or broken, it’s hurts to the very core of me.  I’ve had people take advantage of my kindness, loyalty and fidelity in ways that almost crumbled my faith in humanity.  Fortunately, my faith and my ability to forgive; even those unworthy or such, I’ve been able to move forward in life.




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Blog Challenge: Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?


For me,it goes without saying that I’d go to the hospital and be there to support my friend. I’m sure that whatever fight we go into wasn’t something that would have had us never speaking to each again anyway.  Well, that is unless…Nah, I’m just joking.
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Life and death situations show you just how short life is and how easily things can and do change.


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