The purpose of this challenge it to take inventory of yourself and your life; well, that’s what I’m taking from it anyway. For those participating, it’ll offer each of us to learn more about each other.
Today’s challenge is to reveal…
SOMETHING YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
Given that I think “hate” is such a harsh word, I’d like to rephrase “hate” with “heavily dislike”. That being said, I heavily dislike how harshly I berate myself for things I’ve done that I think I shouldn’t have or should have done differently. My mind goes through an endless rotation of how I could or should have done a situation and/or thing differently. For example, last week, I mapped out directions from my friend’s house to a location just outside of NYC. I weighed each of the proposed route and took the one that seemed most expedient. While I knew when I left, I had more an ample time to reach my destination, I was still thrown and angered when I ended up on the second of the two proposed routes. I fussed incessantly with myself and couldn’t stop the internal war I was raging, in truth, for no good reason. As I said, I had ample time to get to my destination. The irony of the situation was that the route I ended up on ended up being the faster route as it reduced the amount of time I sat in traffic to my intended exit.
I am like this with many things and I am working to reduce and eventually eliminate my negative habit. Like all things learned, it’ll take time to unlearn, but it’s something I really want to overcome. At the end of the day, I’m human and I’m going to make mistakes, bad decisions, or choices regardless of how well thought out; or not, my actions were or could have been.
Well, that one was actually easier than I thought. Phew! I’m sure they won’t all be this easy, but it’s always the first step that’s the hardest, so I will continue on.
Yea, I said that!