Dear (former) Me:
I’m so happy that you’re happy! I like that you’ve been able to accomplish so much in spite of your past, your pain, and your trials. God did as He said he would, and turned them all around and made you triumphant and victorious. You tripped and fell many times and questioned yourself, your direction, and even your purpose in life, but you stood up; you fought on and stopped berating yourself for the choices you made. You came to truly love yourself and for that you should be very proud.
You always relied on your smarts and not your looks to make it through. Not society, not people, and most importantly; not yourself allowed you to be “just a pretty face”. As you would say, if you were, you’d be f*cked in life…lol! You focused on what is truly important and that’s your brain, your content of character and your ability to see beyond what’s so obvious. Intelligence has gotten you out of many a compromising situation, not an ability to play dumb.
In spite of the pain others have inflicted, you were never a hurt person; hurting others. You remained compassionate and kind to other’ even those unworthy of your kind heart. Your random acts of kindness weren’t always random, but planned and intended to make a difference. Why? Because it was important to you. You are an inherently good person who took all her pain and transformed it into something beautiful; something positive.
Even though you weren’t always told you were special or made to feel as such, you finally found a way to tell yourself that. You opened your heart to the most important person…YOURSELF and allowed yourself to feel, know, and believe you are special. You no longer allow others to make you feel what they want you to feel. You’ve come to stand up for yourself, know yourself, appreciate yourself, and be the wonderful person God created you to be. I’m so very proud of you for that.
Given that your modeling in life was rather questionable, you learned to stand firm by yourself and for yourself. You became your own advocate and ultimately, you’re own hero. You don’t look to others to honour or validate you because you don’t need it. You are uniquely and beautifully made and you’ve embraced it fully. You’ve fought the championship bouts in the ring of life and came out the victor; not necessarily for your strength, but for the weakness you felt and needed to overcome. You armoured up and said, “I refuse to back down. I’ve taken too much for too long and now I’m fighting back”. That, my dear, is worth the title of (s)hero!
When all else failed and people let you down, God was always there with you. Too often you tried to go it alone, but you always had the good sense to open your heart back to Him. You allowed Him to take the wheel and steer you on your course and it paid off. You trusted. You believed. You held your faith. You trusted. You suffered, ultimately you were rewarded. God’s grace is exhibited in and through you because you knew that you are better off with Him than without. Hats off to you for that!
So, here you are now, a transformation from a broken and wounded child to a strong and beautiful woman whose battle scars serve as honour badges for the victories won. I am so very proud of you and I love you more than you know.
Yea, I said it!